I'm in rare form today. Feeling a little down. I'm writing this on Thursday, somewhere on the road with my beautiful band, Cold. I'm so incredibly grateful to be with these humans I love so much. Touring and playing for our fans will always be one of my greatest joys. It's an honor and a privilege to share this music with you all. Something I will never take for granted.
But being on the road can be tough. I'm completely out of my routine, spending more time than usual scrolling through social media, and this morning, while sipping my coffee and replying to messages, I came across a video that broke my fucking heart.
It showed ICE agents in Los Angeles rear-ending a man with a toddler strapped in the back seat, then tearing them apart. Masked men taking people. Just… taking them. It gutted me. And honestly, it made me spiral. I have tears in my eyes writing this.
My heart hurts for all of us…for the families struggling, for the chaos that feels so normalized, for the way humanity sometimes forgets itself.
From grounded flights to rising costs, to people not even receiving paychecks OR benefits they need to feed their families, it's too much. The lies, the corruption, the greed, the ignorance. It's disappointing. It's enraging. It's heartbreaking. This is not normal.
And yet… my only consolation is to trust the Universe. To believe that there's something greater happening beyond what we can see. Because sometimes the only way out is through. And here we are.
I'm a firm believer that we have to feel our feelings. When I get into moods like this, I spiral - revisiting all the things I've been pissed off or hurt about lately. But instead of shaming myself for not being “positive” all the time, I'm learning to sit with it. To let it move through me instead of trying to bypass it with false light.
You don't have to be happy all the time. You don't have to force the silver lining. Sometimes the most spiritual thing you can do is let yourself be human.
So today, I'm doing that. I'm sitting in it. Feeling it. Trusting it. Because even the dark days have wisdom.
If you're feeling it too, I see you. You're not alone.
Before you move on with your day, take a deep breath.
Ask yourself: “What emotion have I been avoiding lately, and what might it be trying to teach me?”
Give yourself permission to feel it, without rushing to fix it.
Sometimes the healing is in the sitting.
Sometimes the healing is in the sitting.
Live hard. Love harder.
I love you.
Lindsay M.
Lindsay M.
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Yes! I find myself feeling this way often! Emotions are like waves of highs and lows. Still learning to ride the wave. ❤️
Lindsay… you have such a way with words! I am so grateful for you and all of Cold! You guys are amazing group of humans.
My heart truly breaks every day for this world. Music is a welcome distraction to the very noisy world. Keep rockin, sista!